We never know what the future brings.
All we can do is just praying that our future will be exactly like we want it to be.
And in the journey, God will guide us to make us stay on the track.
So when we want something, and it’s not meant to be ours, then God will never let us have it.
All this time, when God gave me a harsh reality, I always accept it. Even when it involved so many tears at night. Many nights.
Now I have to face this again. I thought I already got what I was looking for all this time.
And I’ve been very happy these days.
But then I was slapped again. What did I do wrong?
Do I ask for anything impossible?
Why don’t I deserve such happiness?
I want this, God. I really do.
But if it’s not meant to be mine, don’t make me want it, God.
‘Coz I’m tired of crying at night. Day and night.
When life gives me lemon, what I usually do is accept the lemon, grumble a little, hope that one day it will give me a sweet orange, but then I eat it though.
Then life gives me another lemon. I cry a little, hope that maybe next time I’ll get the sweet orange, but then I eat it though.
Then here comes another lemon. What should I do? I’m tired of grumbling and crying and hoping for a better offer.
So what? Hope I can find the answer as soon as possible.
Why 25? I don’t know. I just think that I wish I could enjoy the beaches when I am still a young girl, haha. So, I could take a picture beautifully and show it to my friends. I want to take a pose in this place:
While making this post, I also search for some informations about Bora-bora (because if I want to go there before 25, it’s better to make the preparations right now, right? —> what about my thesis?)
So, I think there are 2 great websites (correct me if I’m wrong) to be the guidance before going to Bora-bora. They are
And this is the explanation I got from wikipedia about Bora-bora
“Bora Bora is an island in the Leeward group of the Society Islands of French Polynesia, an overseas collectivity of France in the Pacific Ocean. The island, located about 230 kilometres (140 mi) northwest of Papeete, is surrounded by a lagoon and a barrier reef. “
And this is what I got from tahiti-tourisme.com
“Perfect white-sand beaches give way to emerald waters where colored fish animate the coral gardens as they greet the giant manta rays. This could be easily be described as the center of the romantic universe, where luxury resorts and spas dot the island with overwater bungalows, thatchedroof villas, and fabled ambience.”
Wow, thinking about going to Bora-bora is more relaxing than thinking of my thesis (haha). But, what if I’m finishing my thesis in a hotel room like this…….
…….while watching the crystal-clear water & feel the wind blows??? Perfect, but I have no money right now to go there,huaaaaaaaaa -__-
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It’s 4:18 AM. It’s way too much late for sleeping.
I’m sleepy, but, I don’t know.
I feel like there’s something to do before sleeping.
Maybe because there’s too much thoughts in my head.
All spinning around.
I’ve been spending the last few minutes, checking some profiles of my friends in facebook. But my head got worse, because instead of losing some thoughts from my head, I’ve just put another thoughts into my head. Some memories that I’ve been forgotten years ago.
Memories that have been buried, and there’s no way I want to dig them back. It’s too painful, you know.
So, maybe I need to go to this place to loosen my mind up.
and this and this But, there’s so much more!!!!! I just searched them all on Google & I found a lot more places to refresh my mind. I will write them all in my next posts. God, please, I want to go to all those beautiful places. Amin.
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“I love mankind, it’s people I can’t stand.” —
It’s funny because this is what happening in my days right now.
Thinking about how to meet people, & how to treat them so they will behave like we want them to.
Each people is sooooo unique. No book is enough to describe them and giving us tricks to handle them.
Just stand up & say what you want sometimes is’nt enough. You must read the situation, the mood, everything.
Oh,gosh!!!!
But,that’s life.
Life is full of trials, so, let’s try!!!!!
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